the one about TO BE OR NOT TO BE

TEMAN TAPI MESRA - RATU

aku punya teman

teman sepermainan

kemana ada dia selalu ada aku

dia amat manis

juga baik hati

dia selalu ada

waktu untuk membantuku

namun aku bingung

ketika dia bilang cinta

dan dia juga katakan

tuk ingin jadi kekasihku

cukuplah saja berteman denganku

janganlah kau meminta lebih

ku tak mungkin mencintaimu

kita berteman saja

teman tapi mesra

aku memang suka pada dirimu

namun aku ada yg punya

lebih baik kita berteman

kita berteman saja

teman tapi mesra

i bet after seeing the lyrics, u guys know wat i'm going to write, kan.. hmm .. dat's the fact of life.. we could never have/get everything we want.. coz life is never a perfecto.. dis is wat i learnt from the 26 yrs of breathing the air, after being pulled out from my mom's womb..

TEMAN TAPI MESRA - i really like dis song.. just look thru the lyrics..combining watever i felt about friendship into UNO.. a song.. all my life.. i get to know new people.. from new people to being new frens.. then lead to a new chapter of my life... of course frens with the same gender as i am.. will forever stick to being frens, rite?.. takkan more than dat.. am i rite? but wat i'm stressing here is, me being frens with my opposte gender... as in male frens... boy frens.. or wat ever pepol called it dis days.. *sigh*

i'm no MISS PICKY.. so anyone is welcome to be my fren.. but certainly the person i call fren is someone dat is likeable.. where i enjoy hanging out with.. dat i can talk watever i want with.. even talking craps n bullshits.. but of coz ada limitlah kan.. dat can be an ear whenever i needed it.. and of coz i'll do the same to the person.. and the most important thing is dat my frens like being fren with de person too..

BUT.. sometimes.. dis frenship thingy (between male n female) will tend to mislead or give wrong impression/ signals to each other.. from being just frens.. to wanting to be more then frens.. *sigh*.. the most confused n nerve wrecking of all .. i really hated it when dis things occured.. i've lost a few frens.. good frens.. due to this misguided signals.. bad signals.. i'm sorry.. but dats just de way it is... for me.. frens will always be frens.. forever being frens.. not more n not less.. some pepol did have de nerve to ask me, why not give any of them a chance... hmm.. who knows.. one of them is my prince charming.. my savour from being a spinster.. hmmm.. i believe in GOD's will.. there's always a person for each n everyone of us, either in this life or eternity.. but i wont take any chance or risk of having to break a fren's heart if things did not go well.. this meant i'm at risk of losing a good fren, is it not?.. i'd rather not waste a fren than play fill in the blanks of who's going to be the one.. maybe, whoever's reading this post will not agree to wat i'm writting.. but hey, its my opinion.. n its my rite.. n its my frens i do care alot about my frens..

as for that ONE person.. maybe i've found him.. n maybe i've not.. but watever it is..i'm enjoying my moment... n to my dear frens... if u think that i'm a lil bit akward or trying to wriggle my way not to be reached, its just dat i'm trying to give space between us.. to let matters drop n we'll be as good frens as before.. please pray for my happiness as wat i'm praying for urs.. i'll bet there are more gals out there, who is much, much better than i am.. so, please harden n widen ur search, worait?..